Tuesday, January 02, 2007
12:45 AM
haha. finally! got to sleep in my new bed! haha. but sadly to say i woke up realising that i have a blueblack on my ankle... most prob cuz when i sleep i tend to move ALOT... den maybe kncok into the bed. haha... i can finally understand why jiayi always get blueblacks from knocking at the bed. haha
woke up quite late, almost 12 den i woke up. was quite a borring day. was watching LOTR the fellowship of the ring and basically just rotting away while thinking of the serveral stuffs that i was ranting about yeterday night.
went out with my mum for shopping. haha. kinda stupid cuz i'm really not a shopping guy. ask me to go shopping for my prom clothes and i almost died. haha. kinda stupid lah. considering my cg guys are all big shoppers. LOL.. anyway. bought 3 gidarno dry polo and a converse shoe in the end.
was back home and called alvin to plan for a outdoor caregroup as we are unsure if we are able to get a new venue for cg... hiax. just realised how much we forgot how luckly we are to have a place for cg just outside our school last time. hiax. sad to say its now just over... still searching around for somewhere that can accept us. haha.. but anyway, planned for the outdoor one with ryunkiat, wilfred, dinkiat, alvin and me. yups. shan't say much of the details here =D... haha... it shall be somewhat a suprise =).
suddenly i just realised how long nathan has left for australlia. it has almost been 2 months... and how that school is reopening, I really hope to see nathan in chungcheng... really hope that he would come back to singapore. not sure why. but i suddenly miss him... a lot... actually not only him. but many others too. was surfing friendster just now and i just realised how much i have not been in contact with my old friends. haha. not sure why. but i'm feeling emo today... kinda bad to be feeling emo at the moment, but... hias...
saw many things in the group that are happening. not sure how to bring this up to my leaders, actually, i dun even know it much myself. but i kept thinking when i saw problems that the group people are facing. do i myself face this problem without actually knowing it. everytime i look at my sheep and i see a problem that is surfacing, i start to ask myself. do i too have that problem? looking backwards at how much God has brought me throughout this 1 1/2 years of walking with Him... how far i went in this walk that i started when i first stepped into Hope... how much i have matured after having this relationship with Him. saw many things, saw how i just suddenly felt so lost then i lost those that are close to me. how i felt injured when i got bitten. how i felt just so desperate when no one is doing anything. but i'm glad to say that God is always there for me. seemes to be that i'm currently in a situation as such. but upon thinking back of all the pass happenings, i'm reminded that God will never leave me. He is always there for me, if i turn towards Him. am i turning torwards Him during these times of trouble? or am I just facing it alone? how i seek to settle problems in the group. i begin to start to think. if i myself is floating away from the first love that i seek.
herms.. kinda unlike me to get emotional or emo... but i'm feeling it... maybe i'm no cold afterall...
God, I want to look back at Your word and Your love once again with the same innocecnce that I once had when I first came into contact with You as a child. Help me to seek You in times of troubles and no based on my own strengths. God, You are the all mighty one. I pray that You will place Your hands onto the problems that the group is currently facing, parental procutions and the heart problems. Touch all our hearts once again and let us remember our first love with You. Amen.
+ AMEN
